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  1. Sarah McIntosh
    January 31, 2017

    Ashley Morales Hawkins 😭😭😭😭

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  2. Tatiana King
    January 31, 2017

    Children and babies are smarter than adults assume. I will protect my possible future children from the dragons. I remember being in a stroller myself. I am glad my mom wouldn’t have circ’d me if I were a boy.

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  3. Michelle Filoramo
    January 31, 2017

    ❤️❤️

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  4. Larissa cardone
    February 1, 2017

    So important to keep telling these true stories of harm. And so brave of this mom to speak out, and of how she learned better and did better.

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  5. Christina Rose Atkinson
    February 1, 2017

    My story is similar to this one. My first two boys were cut and screamed bloody murder all the time and I never put 2&2 together. I kept my third baby whole and he was absolutely the calmest most chill baby I have ever seen. He never cried. Hes still just as calm and happy at a year old.

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  6. Brandi Conrad
    February 1, 2017

    💜

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  7. Lo
    February 1, 2017

    All these relatives and family members who have a say in what happens to a male baby’s penis. Imagine if it were a female newborn and the relatives were sitting around commenting on the appearance of her labia, her vagina, etc, it would be considered sexually inappropriate. I said NO to genital cutting when my son was born 25 years ago and leaving him intact–as nature intended–is the best parenting decision that I’ve ever made.

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  8. Joshua Roberts
    February 1, 2017

    😢 So glad the truth was learned and the cycle ended.

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  9. Vanessa Berkey
    February 2, 2017

    That is so sad! Poor baby, glad his mom learned better <3

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  10. Richard Winkel
    February 2, 2017

    When I was a kid I had a picture in my mind about being tied down to a table with a white sheet with a hole in it covering me, in a bright room with someone in white fondling me. It was an imprint. A sado-sexual imprint. It was only decades later when I found out how MGM was done that I put it together.

    This isn’t something you would do to your worst enemy. But the medicult is selling it to gullible parents. As with all things obstetrical, it is sold through fear.

    I think satanic ritual abuse is an apt description of it.

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  11. Jillyn Allred
    February 3, 2017

    Such a powerful story. Thank you for sharing <3

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  12. Chelsi Thibodeaux
    February 3, 2017

    Poor little heart.

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  13. Shannon Marie
    March 1, 2017

    Anthony

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  14. Jessica Jess
    April 12, 2017

    truley a valuable piece, so insightfull but also so sad, crazy how we let other people tell us what to do whaen we need to not listen. also, this is why its so important for us not to harass ppl, we dont want to put them off

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  15. Robert Baker
    June 15, 2017

    I am an adult and in-tact, not circumcised. I never had any physical problems having a foreskin, but I did have another problem, my mother. Every time I would go to see a doctor for something, we never left the office without my mother requesting me to be examined for a circumcision. This continued even when I was in high school. When company would come over, especially if they had a young son, my mother would never pass up a chance to tell everybody, “Bobby (not my name) has never been circumcised!” And if that was not bad enough, the visitors would make comments like, “My God, what happened?” or “You better have it done before he gets any older.”

    I considered my penis to be private and greatly hated her always bringing up the subject of my “uncircumcised” penis to just about any one that would come to visit us, especially if they had children. Even sitting in the waiting room in a doctor’s office she would almost always bring up the state of my uncircumcised penis to others sitting there.

    Now, fast forward to today. I’m in my late 70’s and still not circumcised. In my case, when I was a teenager and I would get an errection, the foreskin would retract by itself. After a while, I realized that it felt perfectly well in the retracted state, and experienced no problems so I began leaving the foreskin retracted. Today, somehow the foreskin seems to have actually shrunk in size so it is almost gone. One doctor while giving me a physical said, “I see you are circumcised.” I said, “No, but it has been like this for almost sixty years.”

    Maybe my case is unusual. I was married for over fifty years, and fathered several children. I still have no problems with my penis. My advice to others, if you have a son, don’t always make circumcision a subject of discussion, especially while he is there listening you tell everybody about his private parts. It it really a serious thing? I hate my mother for it. (at least I think I do)

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    • Chris
      December 22, 2018

      Thanks for sharing your story Robert. I’ve been intact all my life too. I don’t remember the exact age when I became retractable but I know it was before I was five. I remember having errections back then as I was walking around the house naked while waiting for my parents to fill the bath. I remember noticing my glans would pop out of my foreskin for everyone to see during these erections, then my glans would hide back under the foreskin on its own when my penis went soft again. After puberty my foreskin no longer covered my glans like it did when I was a small child so I ended up looking circumcised, even though I’m not. This can be normal too. I’ve had no issues or problems down there either and I’m 50 years old. My brothers are older than me and intact too. They’ve had no issues or infections down there either. My nephews also grew up intact and guess what. No issues or infections with their foreskins either. I grew up and still live in a country where circumcision is extremely rare so I must have seen thousands of intact boys uncovered in my lifetime at different schools I went to where I got undressed and dressed with different groups of boys at different times before and after swimming lessons. I’ve worked a lot with children after I left school in daycare centres and in the children’s ward of the local hospital and other places too. At 50 years of age I still don’t know what an infected foreskin looks like. All the thousands of uncovered boys with foreskins intact I’ve seen looked perfectly healthy down there. In countries where circumcision is rare, issues or infections with foreskins just don’t seem to exist. Perhaps it’s because baby boys in such countries don’t get forcefully retracted like they do in America if left intact. Americans need to learn to leave foreskins alone. Only the male himself should be allowed to touch his own foreskin. Nobody else. Little boys naturally and instinctively know how to touch, fiddle with and even retract their own foreskins without doing any damage down there. Children play with their genitles before they’re even born.

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  16. Dylka Garmendia
    July 6, 2017

    Horrible

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  17. Robert
    July 11, 2017

    I have not been circumcised, and now I am a “senior citizen.” I have never had any problems with my penis my entire life except when I was a child. The problem was not my penis, but my mother. It seemed that anytime the subject of a baby came up, almost immediately my mother would tell whoever she was talking to, “He was never circumcised!” Then they would look at me like I was some sort of a freak or something and they would say, “My God, what happened? You better get him circumcised before he gets any older!”

    Being circumcised is a private matter, and when the person being talked about is listening, you have no idea what he might be thinking. Will other kids think I’m weird? Will they make fun of me when they find out? Will I have to go to the hospital?

    Fast forward to today. I have never experienced any physical problems with my penis as a child or over fifty years of marriage. Remember, memories last a lifetime, so be sure they are “happy” memories.

    In tact, and happy.

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  18. Charleen Thomas
    July 17, 2017

    This is tragic.

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  19. Jacob Wiebold
    November 2, 2018

    I was talking to some guys the other day if they had reoccurring nightmares like I did… my earliest memories starting when I was about 2 maybe 2 1/2 years old. Most my memories are vague, except for the nightmares I had. Unfortunately I can remember them like they just happened, I was afraid to sleep alone every night because of how horrifying they were… the content of the dreams didn’t seem to be coming from my own mI’d have these nightmares that were almost always about one or all of three things I can remember… I had these ones where I’d be in a car speeding out of control with no one else in the car with me… I probably had like 50+ of those nightmares alone between the ages of 2yo through 7yo. Along with ones like that where I would be falling and always waking up on impact, those were really scary too. And more reoccurring ones that were about being kidnapped and that almost always went along with imagery of mutilation like this creepy dude would kidnap me and cut off body parts, usually cutting off my tongue, sometimes fingers a few times he did cut off my dick in these nightmares… I had one one time where I was walking through my old house when I was 5yo I think in the nightmare that same man was there and there were these baskets like something you’d see at world market or some shit and they were full of bloody flesh yeah you guess I distinctly there was severed penises! It fucked me up so bad I never told anyone because of how fucking weird it was. I’ve been bringing these memories into the front of my head again because a couple months ago I put two and two together. These nightmares were manifestations of that fucking trauma I suffered as an infant. I suppose infant do understand that their genitals are being cut and that something horrible was happening to them. I’ve actually never told anyone about this except my girlfriend and my sister… but I don’t think they quite understand quite how and why this was so disturbing to me as a kid… I mean it’s not that people don’t understand it’s just so horrible that it made me not want to think about it… I’ve been an intactivist for 5 years I think and I never thought me having these dreams when I was five were about MGM… because I always assumed I never suffered any other childhood abuse to my knowledge so that’s why I’m talking about it because I really want to know what those images were doing in my mind as a five year old. Seriously I didn’t want to tell anyone until recently because I’ve tried to forget about this shit and I can’t ever so it’s literally like I had these dreams last night even though I don’t have nightmares really at all anymore they were so vivid and I can never forget how disturbing they were and how isolated I felt being raised in a household where we weren’t allowed to express any sort of emotional distress… I want to know how many men have had these dreams and how many of them are MGM victims and if people who’ve never suffered any childhood or infant trauma have these kinds of experiences… but yeah I think it greatly effects people more than we want to realize. I know I couldn’t believe it when I put two and two together. It’s like holy shit, that explains a lot.

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  20. Taejo
    November 18, 2018

    Circumcision rituals, when performed in tribal settings on full grown adult men, are the most brutal and painful body modifications imaginable. Beyond scarification, tattoos, nose or tongue piercings. What on earth makes American mothers think inflicting such a severe injury on their newborn children is acceptable? How do they then feign surprise that their baby wasn’t happy for weeks afterwards? Imagine if someone were to strap you down and slice off half the skin of your genitals, you might be a bit grumpy, no?

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  21. Britain Vanderbush
    January 17, 2019

    Tiffany… Thank you for writing this.
    I am 24 years old and am just now struggling with, grappling with what was done to me as a newborn baby.
    I have had a reoccurring nightmare ever since I was 2 or 3 years old that I was strapped down and a dragon was biting me in that same area. I would wake up in what I can only describe as a panic attack and be absolutely terrified. That dream has haunted me vividly my entire life, and I never knew why. I talked to my therapist about it, talked to my parents about it, but nobody knew why it had happened. After all, I had never been abused or put through any sort of trauma that any of us knew of.
    It wasn’t until this week that I decided to learn about circumcision and I realized that for the majority of my life, I believe I have been reliving my circumcision in my sleep.
    I studied the adverse effects of extreme pain inflicted on a baby and how the subsequent spikes in cortisol levels can alter the hypothermic pituitary adrenal axis in the developing brain and cause things like reoccurring nightmares and improper function of the natural fight or flight system we are all born with, haunting a human being throughout their life and plaguing them with nightmares such as this one…

    I would have a nightmare, usually that I was the size of my toys. I was standing next to my old western town playset and my sheriff action figure was with me. Then someone would strap be down to a table by my arms and legs so I couldn’t move, and a dragon would come and bite me there. I would scream and scream and wake up crying.

    I thought I was pretty alone in this regard and have had people tell me that the dream and the circumcision weren’t related and that I’m just blowing it out of proportion…

    Tonight I sat down in Starbucks and Googled something that happened to lead me to this page.
    I read the story about the dream with the dragon, and ever since I have been sitting in Starbucks alone, a 24 year old man crying over his laptop. I didn’t know if anyone else out there felt like they had nightmares related to circumcision, but to see that someone else has had the same nightmare… and has faced that dragon too… Finally, after over 20 years of not knowing why I had that dream, I know why it happened and I know I’m not alone.

    Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you, thank you, thank you. So much…

    -Britain V.

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  22. Brit
    February 24, 2019

    I’m so glad I didn’t circumcise. I didn’t want to because my labor was so bad for me, probably worse for him and because I had to have a c section under anesthesia, I didnt meet or see or hold my boy until 2 hours after birth. I didn’t want to traumatize him anymore than he was. I 1000% believe babies remember! Even thier births!

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  23. john swaney
    July 7, 2019

    i have this very odd memory ever since i was growing up as a teenager. there was no up, no down, no rhyme or reason and it was just overwhelming all my senses an experience that made no sense. the memory of my entire system being overwhelmed in a not so good way. i didn’t remember the pediatrician’s face or even having my eyes open or hearing anything or knowing anything, but that’s the thing. i couldn’t *KNOW* anything. i realized it was a memory from before i could *KNOW* things, but that it defied things that are normally supposed to happen to you. like i said no up, no down, no faces, no sights, no actual normal memory the way i think of memory just… it took me a long time to realize the only thing that could do this to me was circumcision the actual pain of that moment pain that didn’t make any sense to me of my skin being ripped off … sexually ………….. YOU DON’T KNOW HOW GRATEFUL I AM that you wrote this beautiful, terrifying mother-infused article… literally my entire life i just never believed anybody else would consider it possible for someone to have even a weird memory of just the nonsensical level of chaos-like pain of their own system, but my mother and her grandmother have always had immaculate memories in their life. anyway there’s more … unfortunately, that also created this intense vulnerability deep in my subconscious. there was this intense dark spot that was like a scar for my subconscious self that i realized the only thing that would leave that level of pure evil in my life had to be something equivalent in evil. people would be able to manipulate this throughout my life without even trying just being mean and cruel and they would cut me straight to the bone. i had no defense from people my entire life and have been genuinely tortured when i’m alone just from the memories of actual beyond cruel people in this world. it was the d**ndest thing because it was like it was a memory that was so buried i couldn’t even know about it let alone talk about it, and i only gained any awareness by watching movies and having things slowly slowly wake up over the years (like i was dealing with a whole other person whose life had been much worse than mine inside- and he could only tell me what was happening when so out of it from watching a really good show or movie that he was near a dream state. the only time it wasn’t as real for me on the inside … somehow … ) everything hit the fan when i was a teenager: they thought i was angry for no reason- and i couldn’t tell them what people were laughing at inside me considering it a joke- like i said, i couldn’t know. the memory was like from a time in my life where thoughts simply didn’t exist, let alone consciousness. it’s been a huge endless nightmare for me all my life. everywhere i go i can’t function, i can’t gain relationships or friends… and i can never stop people from attacking that vulnerable part of myself because they know no one would believe me the whole time. it took me ten years to get through community college. but i have sent my mom this article. again, i can’t tell you how much you mean to me. your son was brave, remembering that pediatrician’s face. it was something i could never do. recently i had a fight with some friends online, because my life was reduced to just using a computer and SSI disability – and i just could not stop them from hurting me so bad that i haven’t even been able to have friends online anymore since then. my whole life has been one big journey of being able to have it have proven easily to myself that this was all due to that one memory being very real and a very real effect on my life… but not realistically ever be able to have the slightest chance anybody would believe me. my stepfather asked then why didn’t you tell us and i was helpless in front of him, the way i always am… i cannot tell you how grateful i am that you wrote this article… memories of people will torture me for days on end just because they know i can’t go to anyone, and i would write you personally if i could – it’s like a movie where the fugitive knows he didn’t do it but he also knows nobody else does so he just has to keep running and the cops won’t check out his story for some stupid reason 🙁 thank you, beyond belief. even religion has been failing me because i literally couldn’t reconcile a father-figure who would do this to his only son in this world… just looking at that memory and knowing how wrong circumcision truly is from the *INSIDE* destroys me on a very personal level… i would always walk off on my own at thanksgiving and now i can’t even go at all. my sister wants a relationship with me but how is she going to believe the truth in my life what really happens to me… i mean i know that… my mom knows that … i don’t know where i would be without my mom. she’s the only one who always believed in me dear god i wanna cry right now but… it’s like i don’t have a family or life or friends or budding relationships or even video games anymore because all i have is the intense feeling of the world *HATING* me for the only solution i know being telling *ANYONE* about i think i was actually meant to remember it, for any semblance of sanity. i’m sorry that … i don’t have happier news i just … the mere fact that there ever actually was any other single person in existence who could have remembered their own circumcision (that brave kid i mean dear father in the great beyond he’s like my personal hero…. i mean geez. telling your mom that? at that age? tough guy imo hands down) it just … it might actually give me a chance to get a single moment of peace in my life again, someday? y’know? anyway … thank you for reading this … it just doesn’t it just boggle your mind how bad the world must’ve been in the time of jesus back then … for people to somehow break down from all the evil of the world and think that peeling the skin off of somebody’s body… sexually … as a newborn into this world itself… how could they ever think that was a good idea? how bad must it have been? it’s not that i didn’t want to rationalize and try to understand how or why they could do this it’s just … without the ability to tell my side of my story in my life there was never a way i could counterbalance anything. no one would listen. basically just scoff and snub you because they knew more people in this society are on their side ultimately. it’s been an actual nightmare life… 🙁 had a friend in tarrant county community college who was the mother of a boy who had been violated and she said that when he told her finally something finally clicked with her. like it all made sense. i desperately pray for that day to come… you guys don’t know how much it means to me that you have read this. i don’t want to make an enemy of god, but currently in my life i am having to take ALL of the memories of people inside of me and all the physical things i need to do to get better and i can never quite keep up… it’s the very real situation that even if you’re *perfect* it’s never good enough when you have something ruining you from the inside out, always making sure everything goes wrong somehow and happens wrong, no matter what you do, always just barely out of reach- thank you again for reading this i promise i’ll stop now… there’s just so much to say… so many years… even pleasure has been warped lately- every single thing about me is up for grabs when evil people in this world (and you meet a ton of them only being able to use a computer in your life) get a hold of anything about you. even women, i mean men are hateful but … women can hurt you with feelings that were supposed to be nice. the people you meet online… i swear (thank you all for reading. i wouldn’t wish anything of my life on my worst enemies so may it never happen to any of you. might ask Mother Mary of Bethlehem to cut me some slack if you guys get a chance to put your hands together and throw some thoughts her way. a mother is always that one person… sigh. good luck to you all! g’bye 4 now)

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